The reality is your contrasts to what has unfortunately claimed my life are refreshing and a challenge. Befriending you would be like an kitten befriending a St. Bernard. For no other reason but having fun in a way that's all but lost to me.
Henry David Thoreau once said "The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation." I refuse to be part of that mass. When I was a young sap of 21, that was my only acceptable outcome. To be non-conformist. To never give up on my ideals and beliefs. To simply be. Now? I work an office job that is great for the resume and hate. I am a victim of my own financial circumstance and I dream everyday something catastrophic would change the course of everyday life for everyone so that I could prove my worth. The true worth of a human in his environment. Not this made up worth we have developed within cyberspace, walls, cubicles, buildings and politics...
I've known all along that I can be something else. I want to enjoy my life and regret nothing. I am slowly leaning towards that. Getting to know someone like you would help. Knowing that people like you exist in this godforsaken world of ours helps me to remember. Helps me to reach out.
Reach for the heavens because even if you fail you will be amongst the stars. I will do that. I will be all I can to my content.
I honestly could not feel better and honestly do not know how to start. So for starters, everything that makes me unhappy within my control I will surely start there and by my 30th birthday, I will be at a point not even I could believe at this moment.
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