Life As You Know It

So I think, for starters, I will venture to say Life as I know it is not the same as the way you do... Real big realization for you there isn't it? Surprised? Me neither. People are as unique as snowflakes, basically all the same, but not. I know I am not the same as anyone else. I know I am not special either. Just another flake in the sky, finding my way to Earth. Think I'll make it? I'm not holding my breath....

I may evaporate up before landing. I may float around aimlessly and end up stuck in a tree or land in a body of water, and then never realize what Earth, as you know it, is like. I read somewhere once, No single raindrop thinks it's to blame for the flood. So in essence, no single snowflake thinks its to blame for the blizzard... right?

I don't know what help/harm I have been over my life. I felt like I've done the right thing, made good choices, or at least non-harmful ones... But honestly... I have no clue. And if Karma does really and truly exist, which is one of the few things I do believe in, than I have...

Forget this, my analogy is depressing me...

Back to my original thought. Life as You know it. I don't know who "You" is. Whoever is reading this, you do... I don't. All I can say is against the norm, I truly am almost a polar opposite. Motivated in society for a house in the suburbs, with a house, spouse, 2.5 kids, white picket fence, some kind of pet(s), car(s)/suv(s) and a stable job with good benefits and vacation time... I don't want life as normal... I can't tell you what exactly I do want, but that does not interest me in the slightest.

I don't want an address that 5 digits, heck i barely want it out of the 3 digits. Right now it's in the 4 digits (rented) and that's only okay because my work is further out. I don't want to start on that. I don't mind driving but rather take a train or something europeanish. I love my dogs, I'll keep them as long as I can. Do I want a wife and kid(s), yes... When? Couldn't say. Not getting any younger though. Suburbs are not for me. A typical family arrangement the American Dream so seems to push, not for me. The conversations I have with people living it, sooo not for me.

What can I do? I will keep you updated for starters. But as I write this... My house remains in the very high 4 digits (5 digits is a block away, and I almost moved further). I still live in a very far sprawling metroplex built post 1980 (meaning every other corner looks the same with the strip malls, starbucks and an occasional park). The place I live is know for golf, sun, and resorts... things I am not interested in to much. Don't mind the heat, but insane sun is different. (I actually am relieved when its only 105 degrees).

I've written to much just to say, Life as I know it, versus Life as a typical person knows it (maybe you) is not the same... and my real struggle is not walking the road less travelled, but actually finding a road in the desert.

Ironically, I went to Starbucks today...